ALEXANDRIA, Va. – Jurors in the trial of Zacarias Moussaoui asked for but were denied a dictionary yesterday for use during their deliberations on whether the September 11 conspirator should receive a death sentence or life in prison.

Before their lunch break, the jurors – and Moussaoui – filed into the courtroom to hear the response of Judge Leonie Brinkema to the request to have a dictionary in the jury room.

Judge Brinkema told them that sending a dictionary in would be like adding additional evidence in the case, but she invited them to come back if they had questions about specific definitions. And she warned them against doing their own research, including looking up definitions.

After she and the jury left, Moussaoui said, “747 fly to London” – an apparent reference to his dream that President Bush will release him and he will fly to London.

Before boarding a flight from Paris to the Washington area yesterday to be with her son, Moussaoui’s mother, Aicha El Wafi, told AP Television News, “My life is hell.”

“This has been going on for four years, but now my life is hell. It’s hell and that’s all,” she said. “I feel too much pain to speak.” She has complained that her son was being made a scapegoat for the September 11, 2001, attacks.

Moussaoui is the only person in this country charged in the September 11, 2001, attacks. The jury earlier found him eligible for execution by determining that his actions caused at least one death that day. Although Moussaoui was in jail on September 11, the jury ruled that lies he told federal agents when he was arrested in August 2001 on immigration violations allowed the plot to go forward.